Back home

Had a midterm this morning, less than 12 hours after touching down.
Feeling disoriented. Like I don't belong here.. in a college. I don't really feel like a student now. I've been feeling like that lately - on and off really, but it's been like that for the past couple of months.

I want to be out there already, working, contributing to the society/ industry. Instead, I'm here. Not really being of any use.

Then again, I know I'm gonna regret saying this after I start working hahahah. I know I'll miss school - where you can ask all the questions and fail all you want.

Guess I just have to get used to this again..
A final mix to finish by 9am tomorrow, and another project due next Wednesday.

It's all too time-consuming, CWP projects. Or any composing/arranging/mixing project, really.
Takes me forever to get done. Takes musicians forever to come up with the satisfactory final product.

I'm going to miss this though. My last full-time semester.

Next semester, I'll be talking about how much I miss this hahah. So ridiculous.

But yes, best spring break ever! (This is only my second one but.. yeah..)
Maybe I'll blog about that later on.

TTFNs! :)

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